Happy V-Day
Ah V-Day, I've never quite been comfortable with it, but then the whole romance thing throws me a total loop. And no that's not just because I'm single. I really really don't like it. This V-Day is different though, because I'm going to a gay-bar with my friends. As long as they don't pick up and leave me I think its going to be an amazing night. I'm inventing a dessert and everything. Its all about the unintended romance.
Sunday we steamrolled a team. Its not a pretty sight, but after having it done to you, you sortof have to go with it. 12-1, I managed a goal and an assist, our line combining for at least six goals. Things all really came together for us, and Varsity is starting to look a little less worrying. It felt really good, so good, for the team to come together like that... not to mention the sheer relief I felt after several games with good scoring chances and nothing to show for it, to finally see the motion in the back of the net. Backhand too, it was awesome. Last night at practice I remarked how nice it was to actually say to our goalie 'so where do you want it' and to put it there every time. Aim is a good thing. Now if I could just figure out how to do it under pressure... Regardless, I really missed this, and wherever I end up I'm going to try to play. Not that any team will be as great as the one I'm on right now.
So I'm here, writing a presentation that I have to give in just under three hours (no problem, I'll finish writing by one, have lunch, review it a few times as I powerpoint it, then head down to Sainsbury's on my way to class, its all under control) and stopping, like I usually do, to write here instead. I still can't seem to bring myself to do much, a lack of deadlines and shallow reading lists is making it all very difficult to motivate myself. Tomorrow I keep intending to spend the day at the library working on a paper topic, I've got a few ideas now and if I could pull something together by the end of the day it would be fantastic.
I'm starting to wonder about this apathy, its odd that I can't pinpoint causes within myself, and wonder if a sense of unfulfillment is just due to my academic deficiency or something deeper than that. I am sure it will pass once the ball gets rolling again and I stop feeling like such a deadbeat wastebag. Right now I'm debating if the pains in my body mean I shouldn't go to circuits tonight, and debating whether that just makes me the ultimate slacker, so whether I should go for a run and do some weights instead. Slacker.
Basck to my presentation... happy love day.
Sunday we steamrolled a team. Its not a pretty sight, but after having it done to you, you sortof have to go with it. 12-1, I managed a goal and an assist, our line combining for at least six goals. Things all really came together for us, and Varsity is starting to look a little less worrying. It felt really good, so good, for the team to come together like that... not to mention the sheer relief I felt after several games with good scoring chances and nothing to show for it, to finally see the motion in the back of the net. Backhand too, it was awesome. Last night at practice I remarked how nice it was to actually say to our goalie 'so where do you want it' and to put it there every time. Aim is a good thing. Now if I could just figure out how to do it under pressure... Regardless, I really missed this, and wherever I end up I'm going to try to play. Not that any team will be as great as the one I'm on right now.
So I'm here, writing a presentation that I have to give in just under three hours (no problem, I'll finish writing by one, have lunch, review it a few times as I powerpoint it, then head down to Sainsbury's on my way to class, its all under control) and stopping, like I usually do, to write here instead. I still can't seem to bring myself to do much, a lack of deadlines and shallow reading lists is making it all very difficult to motivate myself. Tomorrow I keep intending to spend the day at the library working on a paper topic, I've got a few ideas now and if I could pull something together by the end of the day it would be fantastic.
I'm starting to wonder about this apathy, its odd that I can't pinpoint causes within myself, and wonder if a sense of unfulfillment is just due to my academic deficiency or something deeper than that. I am sure it will pass once the ball gets rolling again and I stop feeling like such a deadbeat wastebag. Right now I'm debating if the pains in my body mean I shouldn't go to circuits tonight, and debating whether that just makes me the ultimate slacker, so whether I should go for a run and do some weights instead. Slacker.
Basck to my presentation... happy love day.
posted by Care | 12:18 PM
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